Boredom and self-pity

So, as mentioned in my previous post, I’m down with a heavy cold. After staying in bed for the last couple of days, boredom has kicked in. In the beginning, I actually thought it to have some positive sides, in helping me to relax much more than what I would have been able to do had I been well. But after doing nothing, watching too many “braindead” movies, not even having enough energy to reading a good book, etc, restlessness is getting the best of me. I sooo want to go for a run. Or take a walk through wet Autumn leaves in the park. Or sit at a cafe with a good book. Or climb a mountain (like, in taking a hike to a mountain top, not actually doing rock climbing). Or just sit on a mountain top or by the ocean, all by myself, taking in the freshness, the stillness, enjoying every second of my life as it comes along to me.

 

I’m spoiled. I really am. These things I usually take for granted. In the midst of my momentarily frustration, I try to remind myself that these privileges are taken away from me only for a few days. And I still have hands and fingers to write this text. I’m still able to transport myself to the restroom without being in need of help (thank God!!), my body is still working as it should, basically, altough somewhat reduced at the moment. It’s just a cold, after all. Many people are not as fortunate as to having “just a cold”.  Not to mention that I still have a house and clothes to keep me warm. Still have food, and enough water to drink. I’m writing these things to help me keep some perspective, not sure it’s working yet, though. Maybe it would be good for me to assign myself the homework of writing a long list of all things to be grateful for until I do feel that way. Or maybe just letting it go for now. Guess it’s ok to feel sorry for oneself once in a while as well, and then when I’m bored of the self-pity, I can make a list of good things I wanna do with all my privileges the moment I have them back again instead

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